The Atom Bomb

I was there
When they dropped the bomb
You know I remember the bomb
And I still hear the bomb
And I still fight the bomb
You know I still fear the bomb
You know I still hate the bomb
Sometimes I still get the call

-Surrounded (Chantal Kreviazuk)
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Is it wrong to feel affected by this?
I mean, I have no ties here, plus it's none of my business
Not like I'd want it to be.

I guess it's just that I've been fearing it since August
And I remember how much it hurt back then
And how real the prospect was
And maybe the sullen stalking of that fear and dread,
that was so close and personal back then,
just never really went away

I have this relentless lump in my stomach, yet
This is not my fault; in fact it's the opposite
And I refuse to take ownership of this

This was not my choice

But it still hurts
The memory and the fear and the victomization of betrayal
Still hurts

I guess I always knew I'd hear the news
Eventually
It was bound to happen
Almost inevitable,
Yet completely avoidable
(Though not by me)

And waiting to find out
What you already knew
Can hurt most of all.

-SullenNess