Where do I go from here?

Well... recital's over, I've come down from the high, and I am just absolutely emotionally and physically drained. Today I slept in until 12:30 (not 2:30) and also napped from 6:30 until 10. The recital was really good- I still have to remember to phone and order the video. It feels so weird to be done. And knowing I'm moving away and definitely don't have my *&^% together. It's so crazy, because I've been focusing so hard on getting the recital together, and now that it's done I actually have to think about going away and making plans to do so. And this I have been avoiding. If I'm so miserable about it, then why am I going anyway? I dunno, just how I'm feeling right now, I guess. I'm just really weary. But this feels like an obligation and not something I'm even looking forward to. I'm giving everything up for this, and I don't even know what "this" is. There's just something inside of me that knows I have to do this. Someday it'll all be okay.
Just a little venting here, because I'd never have the guts to be this honest about it in front of you guys. Have you noticed I'm not looking forward to moving? Does everyone feel that way when they leave home? Is it like going away to school? Cuz that's something you know you want and need but it can be hard.
Am I crazy here? Anyway, the better part of me that knows what's good for me wants to tell you that I'm a mess and I need as much kidnapping and encouragement and kindNess as possible, because the worser half wants to be isolated and in denial. Man this hit like a brick wall. I hope I'm not like this all summer. Is there anything I can do to get excited about this huge change?
Anyway, I'm perpetually tired, and I do have a bigger day tomorrow, well a lot bigger than today, so I better go. Just needed to get that out.
Love you guys.
SadNess