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Me Wants!

I want to be done with my stupid taxes!
I want to find my tensor so I can rollerblade in comfort.
I want to know that I have a job when I come home.
I WANT WORLD PEACE!!!
I want to save all the whales and all the puppies and kitties and African children.

I want everyone to make all the decisions so I don't have to make them.
I want everyone to shut up, go away, and leave me alone.
Well not you, just everyone else.
I want neon lights pointing to all the right doors.
I want all the other ones locked and impenetrable.
I wanna quit lying to myself about what hurts.
And I wanna get rid of this abandonment complex that keeps coming back like a bad style from the 80's.
I wanna have the guts to say no
and the heart to say yes.
I don't want to say "I can't" if I should
or "I should" when I can't.
I want to agree with myself.
Know what I want.
Figure out what I'm doing.
I don't wanna think about this.
I want to procrastinate.
Put it all off.
Never decide.

I want strength
and resolve
I want to curl up in a ball
And reduce myself to a coma-like state
Wake up on Monday
With every task completed
Every situation under control
Every complexity understood
And each decision made

And then

I want to go home.

-jumbledNess