Still Canadian

So I think I was subconsciously staying away from all things Canadian to help myself forget that I have two lives, because it's hard not being somewhere you love and missing people you love. I let myself become busy and consumed with my life here, which I also love very much, as an excuse to not have to think about home. You know, other home, cuz this is home too. So of course that all changed when I got emails from my friends saying they missed me and me not realizing that they were missing my absence, because I was not letting myself miss theirs. So then of course I had to call my Michelle and catch up cuz she had lots to say in her email. And of course, she's connected to all my Canadians and then came the flood of remembrance.

Please be gentle with me. I know the Canadian jokes like to fly around here, and I know it's just cuz you guys love me and appreciate this slight difference in my background. The jokes are a reminder that I do in fact miss home in spite of my attempt to stay away. I don't mean for you to change the way we joke around with each other. Just please remember that I love my Country, and respect my homesickness.

HomeSickNess.

little fairies

Book Smart, Street Stupid
Sarah Slean

I was born by an old streetlight
where the men lean out of their windows at night
and I was a lead in the orphan choir,
and I sang with all my might
until I grew up too high then oh,

all the notes I used to play
on the double bass in the b-list ballet
with only the night bugs to lead me home
with their sad-luck serenade
the rain was never ending,
the sadness in my heart
would light and glow in the dark

oh this will never change,
time just wears a prettier face
I'm book smart, street stupid

so don't look for me in confession booth,
with my paints and my pens
and my dry vermouth
trying to uncover some small truth
with these cards close to my chest

the rain was never ending
the sadness in my heart
would light and glow in the dark

oh, this will never change
time just wears a prettier face
I'm book smart, street stupid

the rain still never ending
the wonder in my heart
would light and glow in
it still lights and glows in the dark.
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I saw fire flies.
For really. I really saw them.
Cute little
Surprizing little
intriguing little
Awe-striking little
Childlike little
Charming little
Dream-like little
Night
Fairies.

delightedNess